Oh how I do!

Sweetness-

I've looked for you all my life.

I'd given up, I'll admit it.

Just didn't think you were there.
My Dream Girl, so perfect, so wonderful...

God smiled upon me on St Valentines Day this year.
I'd become so callus, I'd forgotten what day it was- or didn't care.
I knew you were a special woman but had no idea just who you were.

Then I saw your smile.

When you walked out to my truck, your sexy walk, and I saw your smile, I started to get the idea.
We talked and smiled and, well, I already knew you were something different...

Then I heard your laugh.

It was a laugh like I knew; tucked away in my mind, made by the woman of my dreams.

Then I looked into your beautiful eyes.

What I saw was nothing I'd ever seen before- Bright, caring, spectacular eyes that held Universes of twinkles, shooting stars, and galaxy's of wonder-wonderful things that until then, were unknown to me.

I love you and cherish our time together.
You've become so important to me.
One minute with you makes me want another.
Your touch, your feel, your taste, you're smell drives me wild!
I miss you when we aren't together...I need you, Sweets....

I need you forever.

"Mo chuisle" - the pulse of my heart

Completion, contentment, bliss, euphoria, ecstasy, rapture, aphrodisia, desire, hunger, sensuality, craving, enamored, impassioned, devoted, dedicated, affectionate, constant...

I could go on and on and spend days looking up adjectives to describe my feelings for you...it would be a waste of time..they haven't conjugated a verb, haven't invented a new noun that even comes close to describing what my heart feels for you, my love, my hero, my best friend, he who I've been searching for ALL my life.

It's indescribable, it's an entity that has taken root in my heart and continues to grow with every passing day. You ARE the pulse of my heart, the very life in my veins. You are on my lips when I wake in the morning and when I lay my head down at night.

My grandparents spoke Gaelic when I was a little girl...it's not a romantic, poetic language; but it was lyrical to me when I was a child. They were very important to me and I loved them very much. I never fully understood the meaning and feeling behind the phrase and now I have someone whom I can truly attach it to...it's true, now and forever, you are my pulse...my heartbeat...the reason I smile everyday.

I hunger for you...I have such passion for you, but it's the quiet times we've shared, just lying together, or talking that mean so much to me...it's those times that assure me this is not just lust or something less than it is...and what it is, is the most wonderful, beautiful thing that has ever happened to me. YOU are that wonderful, beautiful thing.

It is my intention to treat you like the hero, king and wonderful southern gentleman that you are. I plan on making our lives as rich and fulfilling as possible and I never intend on hurting you or disappointing you in any way. I am in love with you. I knew it from the start, just didn't know what to do about it...now I know:

Song of Solomon 2:16

"My beloved is mine and I am his...''

You complete me, you make me a better person, you enrich my life like no other and I am yours...forever and ever, amen.

On like "Donkey Kong"!

One of the things I love soooo much about my girl is when she tells me it's "On like Donkey Kong"!

That means she's as anxious to see me as I am to see her and we're about to "mutually express our love of one another..."

Or another way to say it would be: "We're going to get freakie!"

Although there's nothing 'freakie' about loving her and how she loves me....We'll get to that part some day...


Honey Bunny?
I love you and can't wait to see you again..
You're everything to me and I love you so much!
;)

Dreamstate...

This is the epitome of how CC makes me feel...when we're together, it's that fuzzy kind of warm, glow I feel. He's the most kind and generous man I've ever encountered in my years and I am so fortunate that we found each other here.

He has this charm, this inner gentleness and peacefulness that makes me feel at home in his arms. Always ready to make me giggle or smile; he lightens my day...makes the everyday drone of life that much more exciting.

I love to see things through his eyes...everything is a wonder to him.
Springtime is his absolute favorite time of the year and I sometimes feel like I'm in a Disney movie with him...you know, the kind where the beautiful princess is dancing around in the forest and the birds come along and put flowers in her hair and she sings to all the animals in this most angelic voice? Corny and sappy? Maybe, but this is what life is like with this wonderful, exciting, gentle, kind, goodhearted, loving man.

We talk about the silliest things and our future together...we know that there will be tough times too, but knowing I'll be with him makes everything perfect even when it's not so perfect. He is and will remain my hero, my confidant, my best friend, lover and the other half who completes me. He is my male counterpart...scary? To some, yes, but very much appreciated.

I love you, CC...forever and ever, amen.

The void I sometimes feel...

#87-

When you aren't near, I feel something missing from my life.

I miss your warm smile, the galaxies in your beautiful eyes, the sweetness and shock of your every kiss... I miss you so much, like I've woken up from the most beautiful Dream to suddenly become aware you aren't real, just The Most Sexy Wonderful Angel of my dreams.

Your voice calms me, your laugh thrills me and your smell/touch/taste excite me like I've never known.
How I miss you when you aren't near!
How I yearn for your company, your assurances of your love and your pleased acceptance of mine.

I feel so empty when we aren't together...
I need you to fill me with the feelings that I've so quickly become addictive to, the feelings that accompany your love and smile...

I need you to fill the void left in your wake so I can be the best, be the happiest, be the one you want.
Of course I remain true to you-I'm too enchanted with thoughts of you to stray. Too enchanted with love for you to forget, Too enchanted with the thoughts of you and me and our future of happiness, Too enchanted..

I love you dearly, Angel of Mine.

#87 II

What CC doesn't tell you is how much he has carried ME away...I knew from just ''reading'' him on KNS that this man was something rare and special...his wit and intellect at first, but then...omagosh! He has the most brilliant mind and the sweetest smile...it reminds me of my son...that little boy look about him. It just melts me. He makes me laugh, he makes me think, he makes me indescribably happy.
Our differences make us better together...like two halves of a whole...he tempers me with his conservatism and I like to think I make him a bit more free...whatever it is, it's without definition except to say that it is the most wonderful feeling ever to be loved and understood and accepted by one whom you admire and love right back.

Love and Happiness

Yea.
It was Valentines Day.
It was also the last time I'll ever think that holiday was a drag.

I was running late, unprepared and nervous.
Thinking about it, there was nothing I could have done to prepare myself for meeting her.

Sure we'd talked and I thought she was wonderful but still. When I first saw her, I turned into mush.
There's no way for me to describe her smile. There aren't words....If I acted like I was hit on the head with a hammer, it's because I felt like it.
I'll never forget that moment.

We talked and smiled and enjoyed each others company; I knew she was something very special and thought we'd get along but WOW...

Now, remember, at this point, I was trying to see something I didn't like. After my luck in the local 'seen', my average was around 2 min before I saw something that turned me off or something I knew I couldn't live with.
There is nothing that worries me about this wonderful woman.

I looked into her eyes and felt so comfortable and at ease I scared myself-It couldn't be!
When I started feeling that way, that wonderful way she makes me feel, all I could do is think about her and how I needed to maintain my composure, maintain my senseability, maintain ...heck, keep my tongue in my mouth.

We've never really talked about it but I've always considered myself a conservative and I think she considers herself somewhat liberal but we both have nearly identical views on the real important things.

She's easy to forgive, tolerate, see the best in people and ready to Smack Down those who are hurtful or judgmental.

It's funny, we're neither moderate but still agree about most things..-which I find funny/wonderful. Neither of us has tried to convince the other about changing minds about issues.
I love this woman soooo much and miss her dearly when we aren't together.
I've looked for her my whole life and had just about given up finding her.

She's given me a new outlook on the World, Life and appropriately, Love.

#87

#87 said...

Baby...you forgot to mention another aspect of that first date...one trivial to some maybe, but to me, kinda significant...it was Valentine's Day.

Now it's time for me to brag on you, sweet man, because you've so eloquently and kindly expressed your feelings about me and because I feel the need to let the world (if not at least, the KNS world) know what kind of man you are.

As CC has stated in his first blog post, it was his wicked wit and glowing intellect that first attracted me to him.
We two have a very warped sense of humor and not everyone ''gets it'', it is refreshing to find someone who you can exchange witticisms with and you are understood.

It was the ''Capn' Morgan Mustache'' comment on a particular thread that knocked me off my center. I had been watching him, reading him daily at work and he made the day go quicker...I found myself laughing at my desk and smiling everytime I ''saw him'' on the KNS.
It was that night, I believe I decided to make contact with him. After assuring him that I was female, the chemistry between us just exploded! Not even having laid eyes on this man, I began to feel an affection, a connection with him.
Then it happened. I spoke to him...heard his voice...heard his laughter...I was in trouble!

Something that should be evident to anyone who has read him, CC is the most intelligent, compassionate, kind, generous, gentle, goodhearted right wing republican you'll ever have the privlege to meet.

But that wasn't the half of it. I never knew I could feel this way again. Never knew someone could challenge me, lift me up, motivate me to be a better human being like he has.

I pray that every woman could find their CC, could keep the faith and seek out that man, that person who you could truly call your best friend, lover, confidant and knight in shining armor like I have.

He is my world and so integral to my survival and happiness.

I love him so, and he knows it.

Crazy about her!

If you've read my first, You're ready to understand more.
If not, Skip this and read the first and then come on back...
You don't want to miss out-if you're still reading this!

While chatting with the girl of My Dreams, I said something I now regret.
Although it wasn't overt or nasty personal, I've apologized and she has assured me it wasn't bad, and that I "worry too much'.
I do.

I worry about becoming too attached -again.
The last try floored me; I really thought I knew what Love was, what the 'check points' were and that I'd know it if I saw it.
Gun shy, if you will...

Talking to my girl has stripped me of all my worries.
Well, not all of them. I now worry about her and our time together and how I can spend more with her...
In our time, we've cussed and discussed everything thats important to me and she puts me totally at rest.

Our first meeting was like a dream. I'm still and am, giddy about it.

I mentioned in the previous post that she had communicated a suddle 'forgiveness' for my Not making Lunch sooner and when I did, it was soooo nice.
We had lunch and simply talked without eating.
We talked about so much and even though our backgrounds had many clear differences, there are still, many clear "in-commons".

We connect.

She is beautiful in Every way Possible.
OMGosh!
Name something?!?!
Spiritually!
Civilly!
Compassionately!!
Loving!!
Forgiving!!
Fair!!
Honest!!
Not to mention, She's such a Foxie Thang!

I look into her eyes and see FireWorks...
I see her smile and my pulse races...
I hear her sweet voice and I'm instantly at ease...
and I was 'On guard' about his..

How we met, not looking for anyone, just inocently commenting about the various crazzzzy stories our area is gifted(?) with...
It's like it was ment to BE!

Once again, I'm thankful for her love....God has smiled on ME!
I wanted to share a bit more about our first 'date' but I've gotten distracted with thoughts of her...
I can't help it, to have met in such a random fashion, on a newspaper website?
When we were both not looking? I won the lottery!
It was meant to be, I'm sure.

My Doll has indicated she 'lovvvved" my first story and thats my motivation for writting this one..

I've asked her to 'Share" something here so if ya'll are interested, please eg her on with comments...
If she won't or no one cares, I'll still post to fill in some time and make it a record for Google to keep in their web history.
Tonight and forever, rest assured, If you've read this far, you've read the rantings of "The Worlds Most Happy Man".

C? I love you dearly and you're so presious to me.

Wow. I never knew....

Having been involved in the relationships I've been in, I really thought I had a grasp on what was important to me and how I'd be content to live alone, date some, and fish alot.

And then?

And then the most wonderful thing happened while cuttin up on the KNS.

Everyone wants to think they have a sense of humor and when others 'get it' you feel validated.
I'd posted some funnies before and didn't get much of a response and then one evening, I got a reply from a person who thought it was funny..
I was pleased with myself as I was that someone had noticed it and enjoyed it.
Little did I know....

Being a somewhat 'regular' on KNS, I started noticing the funny stuff the other person was posting and -even though I thought it was a guy- thought them to be VERY cool, quick witted and Smart.

Then, one day, that person ID'd themselves as a female.
I thought,"Hummm...thats better. I'm not laughing and wondering about a guy!"-btw, I'm 100% Hetro.

One evening, she and I had exchanged some funny thoughts in a 'thread' and the mistakes a reporter had made and she said "... please don't go!" after I'd said I was logging out.

I wound up sticking around for a while longer...enchanted with her thoughts and quips. I said that I hoped she was a girl and she assured me she was-I had seen her post saying that before but didn't wanna seem too 'stalkerish'.

I don't know how many of the people who post there know it but you can get in contact with someone by clicking there ID and next thing I knew, we had made contact and she's even reviewed my past post and sent me a comment or two about a few she particularly liked.
What I've never told her is that I'd done the same to her ID and saw much she'd shared- and enjoyed it all.

I wasn't looking.
Neither was she.
And it started happening.
I still can't believe it.

I've never seen the KNS as a dating site, a place to pick up cyber women or anything like that. Truth be known, I didn't even know you had the ability to 'search' or 'contact' before her..

It took about a month and a half for us to get together but we were in contact daily.

I'd thought it might be fun to have lunch one day and she agreed. Of course, then things started being a bit hectic for me and although we hadn't really set a date, I think it was understood and anticipated to be 'soon'.

Now, mind you, she'd already been occupying my thoughts-very much so...-(Mmmmm!) but I had let it go on too long and one evening I got a message that begain something like this: "..no pressure, when you get a chance, no worries..".

"What have I done?", I thought, stricken with panic!
I contacted her and assured her I was interested-very much so- and we made a date.

I'll tell ya more in another post but allow me to say this:

-Neither of us were looking and KNS isn't a meeting place like a dating site or anything-as you must know..

-How we got together was simply from the admiration of her ideas and thoughts and our shared demented sense of humor.

-Whats happened after the first 'contact' has turned into the greatest thing thats ever happened to me.
I never knew what love really was.
I never knew how down right Silly or giddy with glee I could get at this 'grown up' stage in my existence.
I never imagined I could fall for anyone again and have been 'on guard' against it for 2.5 years.

-I'm helpless in her Love. Not that I even try to fight it anymore- I resisted at first but have been carried away with everything about her.
She is the perfect person for me and I'll be sharing why soon enough.

Why am I doing this? For all to see, know and understand?
I'm so happy with meeting her, I wanna tell everyone!
Also, I want some to understand that there is hope for Love and it might bite you in the least likely of places. When you find it, as I have, it brightens your world and enhances everything in your being.